etupbutFaiheldmetightwhilehisfriendjust
forceshimselfihihaveputsomelubriton
hispeniscausethoughitwasdifficult,hemaopushitinto
me.Ifeelsohumiliatedahoughtofitmakesmesick.』
跟发型设计师的片段：『Istruggledabit,butsoonIwasjustmoaning
andscreaming.Hemademeeshortly.Maybeitisthesituation,or
maybeIjusthadnothadgoodsexfortoolong.
Itoldhimnottoeiofcourse,hedidnotlisten.
ThistimeIwasveryworried,asIhadstoppedtakingmypillforsome
time(well,Idoohavesex,what'sthepointoftakingthe
pills).
Luckilymyperiodessometimeafter,andIstartedtakingmypills
againasIknewnowIneedprote.』
关于地下赌场的片段：『AfterIcamethe2ndtimeBjustpushedmedown
onthesofaandaimhiscockagainstmymessywetpussy.Hedidnot
evenbothertoremovemydress,justliftitupandshoveditinhard
anddeep.AfterafewstrokeIfeltlikeingagain.Herideme
tillucame,andthenpulledout.
AabandonedFeiandcameover,replagB'splace.IthinkIsawa
hintofhatredfromhowFeilookedatme,butthenthepleasurewas
sointenseIdidnotevencare.Amademecameagain,andthenasked“
areuonthepill?”Ishakemyhead,butinsteadofpullingouthe
justpushindeeperandshothishottomyt!』
和阿辉一伙的事件，造成她内心很大的矛盾和不安，和她来往的信件中，类似这
种内心纠结的片段一再的出现：
『IamthinkingshouldIcallthefirst4PwithAhFairape.Inthe
westernworld,thereisagreyareacalledrelut,meaningsomeone
whoarenotawillingpartygettrickedintosubmittingtoasexual
situationthatshewasninallyintended,butendupenjoy